Spencer Bell Legacy Project

I am trying to get as many people as I can to read about the Spencer Bell Legacy Project. Spencer Bell was an up and coming musician who died in 2006 at the age of 20. He had only known for 5 days that he had Adrenal Cancer when he died. Adrenal cancer is still very overlooked in most circles. The Spencer Bell Legacy Foundation raises money for Adrenal Cancer research. If you are interested in learning more, just let me know.


Much love,

Bernadine

Wandering

I feel like I've been wandering lately. Not just wandering around, but maybe wandering through life? It isn't that I don't know what I want. It is that I put too many people in front of me. Not a bad trait you say? It can be. I'm a very strong person, yet also very caring. If someone needs something, 99% of the time, I put their needs in front of mine. This ends up making me a miserable person a great deal of the time. I love helping people. Sometimes I just feel like screaming "when is it my turn"? I guess I have no one to blame but myself. I hate drama yet my personal life is never as neat and tidy as I would like it. It's taken me all this time to even have the nerve to try and get my first manuscript published. The first company turned it down. They said it was great, but, of all things, it had "too much sex"? Well, that's better than not enough! So off it goes to some more publishing houses. The first company said they would most likely publish it if I took out at least two sex scenes. I didn't even think about it for very long before declining. I know, I know. Some people would kill just to have ONE book published. But the way I see it, if I start compromising now, when does it stop being MY writing? I'm nearly two thirds done with my second manuscript also, so it will be off to publishers soon. Maybe it wouldn't hurt to have an agent? At this point I can't even imagine that. Hopefully I will become a successful writer. To me, I already am.


Much love,

Bernadine